Empty Nest

So my son is off to spend the night with his friend. I never knew that teenage boys spent the night at each other's houses, I honestly thought that was a "girl' thing. This time though he has a really good reason. He's going to be spending the week with this family at Panama City Beach. He's spending the night tonight because they are leaving early in the morning.

Of course, like I said before this isn't his first time to spend the night with someone and it's not the first time he's been on a trip. It is, however only the second time since I've been divorced that he's been gone away from home for so long. I don't have a problem letting him go, but the house is extremely quiet without him here. Make sure you got that, I said it's extremely quiet, not too quiet.

Quiet can be good, but it can also be excruciatingly painful. It's difficult to sit here night after night with just the noise of the television or radio. It's difficult to sit here with no one to talk to. Well, there is the cat but he has a tendency to walk away when he's had enough. Oh wait, that's what my son does too. I guess nothing will really be that different.

With him being gone for the week I guess I get to practice my "empty nest syndrome" strategy. Is there such a thing? Do you really get to practice for the time when your child will no longer be at home? All week I will have to cook for one (and I have no clue how to do that), wash clothes for one and cleanup after one. I will have so much spare time I won't know what to do with myself. The phone won't be ringing off the hook either.

I will definitely need to get a hobby or a life before my son graduates from high school and moves off to college. If I don't the mother bird in this nest might just go cuckoo.

In the beginning...

God created man and woman. He intended for them to enter into marriage and procreate. We got that part right, but then something went horribly wrong...

I became part of the "1/2 of all marriages end in divorce"statistic. Yup, that's me. Never thought it would be but here I am. I'm 37 years old, divorced and I live with a teenage boy.

I posted that part yesterday, along with what I thought was a very cute story involving my son. However, when he found out I had told some friends he wasn't feeling well (and then telling them what was actually wrong with him), he was mortified. I tried to explain to him that everyone was just concerned about him, but the "problem" was private and in his eyes I had betrayed his trust. I had put his personal information on the internet and he was NOT happy.

So, after deleting my post on Facebook I quickly came here and deleted my first post. I figured if he didn't want friends to hear about his problem, he certainly wouldn't want complete strangers hearing about it too. So here is my second attempt at my first post.

He is still a child (whether he wants to admit it or not) and a simple health problem that everyone can get has completely embarrassed him. It really is nothing major, but to him it is. I need to respect his feelings and learn to ASK if I can broadcast his problems to the world before I actually do so. Come to think of it I wouldn't want him to share my problems with the world.

So, this has been a learning experience to say the least. I hope my son forgives me and I hope I can earn back that trust that is so precious. I want him to know that he can come to me in confidence whenever he has a problem.